Pretend

I have no change,
I have no different compare to last time.


I'm still standing there.


Yes,
or maybe I have some different.
I try to control my feeling,
I try change the feeling to light.


I afraid I fall again,
I afraid I lost again,
I afraid I lost control again,
I afraid myself.


sometime I really think that I'm a stupid,
and one of my friend also have this feeling.


both of use seem look release thing so easy,
but we are not.


we need pretend, we need conceal our disappointed, sadness and grief.
because we need protect ourself.
we need it.